in Memory of Dr. Sigmoid Freud

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- Enters the backside clinic... the halls seeming so very empty and missing the love and excitement that use to be here... blue eyes peer around missing a close friend so very much and the ritual exams and care he gave to so many of the islands little ones for so long... small hand carrying a drawing and little written out few words as me stand onna chair an right in the middle of the big wall of the waiting room put up this little note -

To Dr. Sigmoid Freud,

You are missed so very often, your loving touch so dear...
We all miss your laughter, We miss you so very much here,
you were taken from our lives, in an accident not long ago,
now we aren't sure what to do, and we really just don't know...

some people have tried to take your place and to make a funny face,
as the doctor of our families, our pets, and of this place...
but you have gone and left us missing you and the clenching fun,
and now with the restart of the island, the damage has been done...

All the old stories, and playful visits here,
are gone forever to all those that held them dear...
so please to all that read this, remember the doctor we all once had,
and do your best you can, do not get sick or feel bad...
He was the kind and gentle person, playful caring and true,
but one thing is for certain, this little one misses seeing you...

May you rest in peace Dr. Sigmoid Freud...

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- puts up a wittle crayon drawing of me howding my Daddy's hand wiff Dr Siggy on da udder side, an a sun in da sky an a wittle clinic in the bawkgrund an trees an clouds an green grass an we all hab smiley faces cuz Dr Siggy always made da bad feelins go away....

... climbs down an goes to da record player an puts on Don Mclean singing American Pie and quietly sings along as me light a safety candle in it's holder in honor of the doctar....-

A long, long time ago I can still remember how that music used to make me smile and I knew if I had my chance that I could make those people dance and maybe they'd be happy for a while but February made me shiver with every paper I delivered, bad news on the door step, I couldn't take one more step, I can't remember if I cried when I read about his widowed bride but something touched me deep inside, the day, the music, died. So...

CHORUS
Bye, bye Miss American Pie drove my Chevy to the levy but the levy was dry an them good ol' boys were drinkin whiskey and rye singin this will be the day that I die, this will be the day that I die.

Did you write the book of love and do you have faith in God above, if the bible tells you so, and do you believe in rock n' roll, can music save your mortal soul and can you teach me how to dance real slow? Well I know that you're in love with him cuz I saw you dancin in the gym you both kicked off your shoes and I dig those rhythm and blues. I was a lonely teenage bronkin buck with a pink carnation and a pick up truck but I knew I was out of luck, the day, the music, died. I started singin...

Chorus

Now for ten years we've been on our own and moss grows fat on a rollin stone but that's not how it used to be, when the jester sang for the king and queen in a coat he borrowed from James Dean and a voice that came from you and me, oh and while the king was looking down, the jester stole his thorny crown the courtroom was adjourned, no verdict was returned, and while Lenin read a book on Marx, the quartet practiced in the park and we sang dirges in the dark, the day, the music, died. We were singin...

Chorus

Helter Skelter in a summer swelter the birds flew off with a fallout shelter, eight miles high and fallin fast, its the land that falled on the grass the players tried for a forward pass with the jester on the sidelines in a cast, now the half-time air was sweet perfume while the sergeants played a marching tune we all got up to dance oh but we never got the chance oh as the players tried to take the field the marching band refused to yield do you recall what was revealed, the day, the music, died. We started singin...

Chorus

Oh and there we were all in one place, a generation lost in space with no time left to start again, so come on, Jack be nimble, Jack be quick, Jack Flash sat on a candle stick because fire is the devils only friend, oh and as I watched him on the stage, my hands were clinched in fists of rage, no angel born in hell could break that satan's spell and as the planes climbed high into the night to light the sacrificial right I saw satan laughing with delight, the day, the music, died. He was singin...

Chorus

I met a girl who sang the blues and I asked her for some happy news but she just smiled and turned away, I went down to the sacred store where I'd heard the music years before but the man there said the music wouldn't play and in the streets the children screamed, the lovers cried, and the poets dreamed but not a word was spoken, the church bells all were broken and the three men I admire most, the Father, Son, and the Holy Ghost, they caught the last train for the coast, the day, the music, died, and they were singin...

Chorus

They were singin... Bye, bye Miss American Pie drove my Chevy to the levy but the levy was dry an them good ol' boys were drinkin whiskey and rye singin this will be the day that I die.

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- tip toes in bezin reel quiet and replaces the old candle wiff a new safety candle so da memories of Dr Siggy always stay burnin bwite in our minds an harts ... den dusts off me dwawing so it wooks nice on da wall udder Dr Siggy's ol' stethescope me finded and hung on da wall, den pauses fur a minute to wipe away a teer befure tuwning an scootin fwum da office -

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- peeks in an kwicklee goz arund puttin new candles in where the old ones were getsin low.. dusts off da tables an cobwebs an makes sure da pwace wooks reelly nice to honor da memory of a missed fwend...straightens da drawin's an plack...gets a vaccuum out an doz it weel quick.. den puts some fwesh magazines on da table so dat it's up ta date an don't seem wike hims been gone so very long... -

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- creeps inta da old office seein da cob webs tartin ta form an stuff so me gets a broom an cleens dem up.. den fixes an gets new safetee candles put out as me finds a few wittle xmas lites an stuffs decoratin da room as Dr Siggy mite of dune a wittle smile rememberin da fun many had wiff da Dr, an hims fun ways of makin sure da GI kids were all healthy an wooked after... dusts off da tables an chairs an den da drawin den slips out kwietlee -

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- enters quietly, wiping a tear as new yeer has stawted wiff Doctar Siggy gones.. takes time slowly wipin off the dust frum the chairs no needin water as her eyes are providin its, carefully straightenin da piktar me did of me Daddy, Dr Siggy an me, smilin as owd memories fill me hart... lightin sum new candles seein me gunna hafta ask Daddy to buy sum mower cuz me lil box of dem is getsin low... cuwlin up on a chair in da waitin woom wookin at da dusty frosted glass of ware da nurses usta be an ware Dr Siggy wuld stick hims face out an make funny faces at us so we no feewed too bad bezin at da doctar... waits quietlee fur a wile twying to wemember hims face, not wantin to furgets how gud hims wuz wiff us lil ones, knosin me cuddn't be da onlee wun dat misses hims, finkin sumday da office will jus disappeer, an all dis will be gone, feewin sad finkin aboot dat, wooks up seein Dr Siggy mobin arund da waitin woom in me hed wiff a puppet on his hand or sumfin to makes us laff an feew a wittle better befur da exams stawted... wememberin me first time in da office.. me peeked in not feewin well an started wookin arund da room, pwayin a wittle wiff da tools as me gotz caught.. an Dr Siggy puts me on the table dat had nice aminal pwints on it an it was warmed, an hims sitted on a neet stool wiff weels an hims dimmed the lights den carefully gabes me a checkup and da udder times me daddy bringed me...

... smiles a wittle rememberin doz times, knosin wiff doz memories Dr Siggy will neber be truly gone.. eben doh hims plane went poof an all... hims still arund in spiwit and in memories... -

nite nite Dr Siggy... me remember

- closes the door as quietlee as me came an heads out always feewin as me usta wen me left Dr Siggys office.. a wittle better -

~ pumpkin ~

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- peeks in an kwicklee goz arund puttin new colored candles in where the old ones were getsin low.. dusts off da tables an cobwebs an makes sure da pwace wooks reelly nice to honor da memory of a missed fwend...straightens da drawin's an plack...gets a vaccuum out an doz it weel quick.. finds sum fwesh magazines on da table so dat it's up ta date an don't seem wike hims been gone so very long... sniffles a wittle wishin hims was hewe...

slips out kwietlee shuttin off da light as the dimness of da office feews as dawk as da pwace innide me dat misses da Doc... whipars... -


nite nite Dr Siggy... me miss ya

~ pumpkin ~

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- peeks inta da woom an fixes up da candles.. dusts da chairs and den puts a lil 4 leaf clover me finded on da table infrunt of da piktar an plack fur Dr Siggy... sighs quietlee missin hims as me wispar just befur leebin da office.... -

Happy St Patrick's Day Dr Siggy

- slips out -

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- takes down the st patwicks stuff an puts up Easter stuff eben doh it meens nuffin ta me cuz i gots nuffin an da eester bunny always misses me cave... sticks up a Happy Eester card an deco fur Dr Siggy.. sweepin da floor, an tidyin da waitin room befur slidin out ta go cry -

[justa ferretgirl]

*commin in to help pumpkins cause...me sets out a few packages of peeps and lights a yellow chick shaped candle an leaves the room for a lil while hopin dat da dr an pumpkin come back*

[pixiedust]

I dinna know him but I read your guyses stuff and he musta been great. I'm sad cuz I never metted him.

[justa ferretgirl]

*quietly enters to clean up the EAster stuff and to put up a few pictures of spring, also a vase of fresh flowers*

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- peeks in seein pixie and ferret have been lookin after Dr Siggy's office fur me.. smiles a little and leaves them some candy that won't go bad or anything so they can enjoy them the next time they come to look after stuff for me... slips back out quietly -

[Unka Bobby]

- peeks in seein pixie and ferret have been lookin after Dr Siggy's office fur me.. smiles a little and leaves them some candy that won't go bad or anything so they can enjoy them the next time they come to look after stuff for me... slips back out quietly -

<not being much into the paranormal (having not yet made it to just plain *normal*), I can't help but wonder what a thorough exam and a good washing-out from a *ghost* would feel like to her. It's possible that the good Dr. could be lurking around here somewhere, you know! Or, perhaps that death in a freak bottom-plug-projectile accident was just a cover story, like Elvis's death! Nothing's absolute in this world! And, probably such a spirit, made of ectoplasm after all, wouldn't even need jelly on his gloved finger! Hmmm... where is that avatar...> [although that Clenchometer test might not be the same this time, with nothing in the physical realm to clench down on, during a preternatural exam! Still, it's very important to give both big girls, and their Innergirls, thorough prostate exams regularly -- because if you find one, then you know you've got a real medical issue into which to delve further! Or so the good Dr. Sigmoid Freud taught me, as his apprentice for lo' those many years...] [oops, off to take the Easter egg out of that poor lass's bum, on the Clinic's front door! Get that thermometer back where Gawd intended it to be!]

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- see's UB an wistens ta wut hims say as me feew chills goz up my spine -

GHOSTESSS!!! nooooo dats spooky!!!!

Ya don't fink Dr Siggy's ghostez is hewe do ya?

He wuld be a gud ghostez doh right?

- lil adult form twembles feelin reel small heerin aboot da clenchin an memberin me first time getsin a clench test... giggles finkin how me dint knose how ta clench da first time... giggles -

- looks arund finkin me hafta put mower lights in hewe so it not feew as spooky wen me cleenin an fixin fings up -

[Elizabeth]

pumpkin, i read this thread every time you post and wonder who this person so dear to you was.

i think it's neat that you keep the place up so well, too.

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

Hi Elizabeth,

Dr Siggy was the doctor of GI for many many moons on the old GI before the storm that shut it all down.  Just before that happened Dr Siggy had a cyber accident from a clench testing projectile while on a plane coming back from some where I can't remember and the plane went down somewhere else...

Anyway, the character, was gentle, caring, and thorough in the exams that were given to ensure that all GI Inner Kids were in the best shape and good health. Dr. Siggy, was funny, unique, and special in so many ways and I enjoyed many check ups and doctors visits to see Him, and even my Daddy came in with me.

However what was happeneing was that Dr Siggy was so very busy all the time, and it was hard for him to keep up with all the little ones that needed help. A few Guardians tried to assist with nurses and stuff but that didn't last long.

Some of my best memories of GI include my first nervous visit to Dr Siggy. I was exploring His office when the first happened. I was caught ( isn't that always the case when a little one is being bad or at least thinks she is.. ) I learned what a clench was, and little things. Soon after visits would have Daddy with me in the office and Dr Siggy tended to his exams with perfect precision. My Daddy would watch his little girl be checked out so that I was in good health.

His exams weren't sexual per say, as more of a clinical thoroughness that would basically cover everything.

I will always remember him.

~ pumpkin and her Big ~

[Elizabeth]

hmmmmmmmmm, a clench test?

{just imagining what that would be}

thanks, pumpkin 

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- having been a while since I've come back to fix up Dr Siggy's ol' office I start tidyin da dust bunnies up... wonderin why peeples call dem dat... fixin da candles an makin sure da drawins are still stuck to da walls of Dr Siggy, me daddy an me dat i drewed an a few udder drawins frum udder Inner Kids dat had comes befure...
wookin arund da dim woom me opin da blinds so da sun shines in gibin da owd Doctors office a warm an welcome feel as it always had befur Dr Siggy went away... smilin finkin dats better an leebin a photo album of all da fun times wiff da Dr an nurse an peeple dat camed hewe fur hewp...  den slippin out finkin aboot Dr Siggy -

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

~ walks into Dr Siggy's office and carefully takes a crayon and puts a piece of paper on the wall under the pictures, and notes, and miss you cards, and pictures of Dr Siggy and others and stuff. Carefully writes on the paper with blue crayon..... ~


Don't you wish you could turn back time to when things were good so you could enjoy them all over again?

~.... Knowing Dr Siggy isn't here to give one of his interestings answers, I ponder all that have come and gone in the few years on GI, and how parts of myself have come and gone as well. Starts to tidy the office then slips out quietly into the hall and heads home ~

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- enters bawling as so many friends are leaving both sides of the island lately... rubbing tears away wiff my sleeve den snuggling close to pictures of them all as I carefully hang the pictures of my friends that have gone away up on the wall beside Dr. Siggy's picture. taking a few mower safety candles and lighting them for lil rain, baby kitty, Ms Kay, stormy, sadi, Mommabear, hana(who will hopefully come back), and everyone else that was something special that has disappeared in the past little while...-

be safe where ever you all are...

- starts bawling and runs out -

[Silver]

~slips in quietly and hangs a picture of someone very dear to me that just informed me they were gone....for good~


forever and always auric, love you miss you,

~slipping out bawling~

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- tarts cryin agin -

NO NOT AUWIC TOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

- runs out crying mower -

[Silver]

~goes in search of pumpkin, still crying, needing a hug myself and thinking she might want one too~

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- runs right inta Ms Silver  lookin up and holdin her legs. -

WHY.. WHY did he go?

- sniffles -

why is everyone leevin ME!

[Silver]

~crying with pumpkin, and sitting with her on my lap~
i really dont know why he left hunny, and i wish he wouldnt have, i think it had something to do with his offline life
~sighing and snuggling pumpkin~
it sure does feel like everyone is leaving all of a sudden huh?
~rocking her~
i dont know why hunny, or how to make them stay, i wish i did

[The hiding of an inner,No Siamese's here.]

I don't think they see it as leaving one person specifically. It hink sometims the people who go away don't realize anybody here cares about them or would miss them if they left. On the frontside for instance I didn't think anyone would ever notice babykitty went away, but you did. so I was prooven wrong.

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- snuggles with Ms Silver and tugs Siamese in for a cuddle too -

how can someone not miss onna their favorite friends?

[The hiding of an inner,No Siamese's here.]

Snugglen pumpkin hanging on tight. A bit fussy tonight.

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- howds on tite ta Siamese -

[Silver]

~snuggling both girls, and rubbing their backs~

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- looks at the candles and changes them... then tidies the lobby and straightens everything deep in thought wondering... -


....


what if Dr Siggy hates me for having this thread about missing him ..

- looks around frightened... unsure what to do after the overwhelming explosion towards me the other day -

- looks at my feet talking to myself -

Dr Siggy is dead pumpkin head... let him go...

- wipes some tears... -

I can't.

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- peeks in an kwicklee goz arund puttin new candles in where the old ones were getsin low.. dusts off da tables an cobwebs an makes sure da pwace wooks reelly nice to honor da memory of a missed fwend...straightens da drawin's an plack...gets a vaccuum out an doz it weel quick.. den puts some fwesh magazines on da table so dat it's up ta date an don't seem wike hims been gone so very long... -

- puts on a song and just sits in the waiting room where I use to sit so long ago listenin to the song changin the words as I sing along -

1,2,1,2,3,4
(whistle)
Shed a tear 'cause I'm missin' you
I'm still alright to smile
Doc, I think about you every day now
Was a time when I wasn't sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt
You're in my heart now

Said, doctor, take it slow
It'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said, clencher, make it slow
And we come together fine
All we need is just a little patience
(patience)
Mm, yeah

I sit here on the chairs
'Cause I'd rather be alone
If I can't have you right now
I'll wait, dear
Sometimes I get so tense
But I can't speed up the time
But you know, love
There's one more thing to consider

Said, doctor, take it slow
And things will be just fine
You and I'll just use a little patience
Said, clencher, take the time
'Cause the lights are shining bright
You and I've got what it takes
To make it, We won't fake it,
I'll never break it
'cause I can't take it

(whistle)
...little patience, mm yeah, mm yeah
need a little patience, yeah
just a little patience, yeah
some more patience, yeah
need some patience, yeah
could use some patience, yeah
gotta have some patience, yeah
all it takes is patience,
just a little patience
is all you need

I been walkin' the halls at night
Just tryin' to get it right
Hard to see with so many around
You know I don't like
Being stuck in the crowd
And the streets don't change
But doctor the name
I ain't got time for the game
Cause I need you
Yeah, yeah, but I need you
Oo, I need you
Whoa, I need you
Oo, all this time

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- enters quietly and puts up another set of lyrics that make me think about this thread and the good ol' days -

Knocking on Heaven's Door - GNR - Modified words

     Daddy take this badge from me
     I can't use it anymore
     It's getting dark too dark to see
     Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door

     Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
     Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
     Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
     Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

     Daddy put my guns in the ground
     I can't shoot them anymore
     That cold black cloud is comin' down
     Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door

     Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
     Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
     Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
     Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

     "YOU JUST BETTER START SNIFFIN' YOUR OWN
      RANK SUBJUGATION Little One 'CAUSE IT'S JUST
     YOU AGAINST YOUR TATTERED LIBIDO, THE BANK
     AND THE MORTICIAN, FOREVER WOMAN AND IT
     WOULDN'T BE LUCK IF YOU COULD GET OUT OF
     LIFE ALIVE"*
           
- hums the song straightening candles and pictures of all the loved ones that were lost, missing, or disappeared over the years with the beloved Dr Siggy at the top of the pyramid -

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- slips in to clean up and tidy Dr Siggy's waitin room  makin sure all da posters an drawins an cards are otay and da candles den slips out as quietly as she cames in -

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- slips in bezin dat times ub yeer an decowates Dr Siggy's office wiff cwistmas decowatons an streemars an stuff den puts up a widdle twee wiff lil piktars of all da peeple Dr Siggy hewped afore  den slides out da door an inta da cowd wintar wedder finkin aboot a cwistmas carol an if da ghost of Siggy past will visit an see all da care sum wittle ones puts inta hims office eben doh hims not arund no mower. -

[.o~*~o. pumpkin]

- tip toes in an carefully packs up sum stuff not wantin ta furgets anyfing on da move but knosin UB will be sure ta keep all da important stuff safe too....

wooks arund da woom an smiles den finks aboot how excitin shiftin eberyfin ta da udder side is gunna be an mebbe dewe peeple will wanna heer aboot all da fun stories we all had wiff Dr. Siggy afore he gots hurted an hadda go up ta see da big man up dewe...

wooks up at da ceilin an scrunchies up me lil nosie... humm.. i hope Mr spider up dewe will be otay... waves to da spider dat was gud enuff notta put webs all ober da signs an cards an candles fur Dr Siggy...

carefully crayons onta da boxes " Deer Mr Shiftin guys, pleese keep Dr. Siggy's stuff safe durin da move, fankoo "

... smiles an pushes da heevy boxes up ta neer da door den turns an wooks arund da woom almost seezin Dr Siggy dewe an da happy nurse.. an da udder kids sittin an waitin ta gets checked up an a lollipop... giggles den waves ta da woom..

bye owd office... we gunna takes pieces of yuz an makes da new offices eben bettererer!!!!